When I was about to turn thirty years of age, I was a little freaked out. Thirty? When someone asks me how old I am, I must say...thirty (gulp)? Are you serious? It feels like I was just eighteen years old. Well, a few things have changed. A great husband, two beautiful children-just to name the obvious, but the inside and maybe the-not-so-obvious have changed, too. To tell you the truth I wouldn't go back to my twenties for anything..I mean, it was fun at times, I didn't have as many responsibilities..but, I was not at all comfortable in my skin as I am now. At this point in my life, I feel like I know what I want (maybe, not all the time), I am more sure of myself, and I LOVE who I am. I also have realized who my true friends are, and what type of people I want in my life. I don't have many people in my life, but the ones that are here, are true to me. They want me to only have the best, and I the same for them. I've also learned that I must not compare my life to anyone else. I am where I'm supposed to be. This is where God wants me to be, and I accept that. When I first moved to Tennessee, I didn't have many friends. Not true friends, anyways. That made being here very lonely, at times. But, as time went on I started to learn A LOT of things about myself. Trust me, with little distractions, I had time to do that. When I became a Mom, that too, taught me a lot. So, I cut out a lot of the negativity. Did that mean the people and some things I was doing? Yes. Motherhood definately will do that.
In the last couple of months I've found some great friends. We are not exactly alike in many ways, but that is the good thing. They are there for me in the bad and in the good. It feels so nice to have that after all this time. We can get the kids together and we can get together ourselves and have some good laughs. I am still on the road to self-discovery and I know that I will be on that road until the day I die, but I am learning something new everyday. So, has getting older really been that bad? Besides a little bit of a freak out session, it's not all that bad. I count my blessings and thank God for them. So, allow yourself a 5-minute freak out session, too-then move on. It's not all that bad. You'll see, if you haven't already!
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Well, I am on my way to thirty and I am welcoming thirty with open arms. I am so ready to HATCH and get out of my pity-twenies LOL these past 10 yrs have been high and low and up and down and come back around. Thanks to your blog I am looking forward to it. Dec 21, so I still have a ways to go. Be Blessed!!
Evelyse you are so right. Everyone kept on saying " Oh, your going to be thirty!" Its not bad at all and I am extrememly happy in the way my life is going. I would not want to change a thing and would not like to go back to twenty-something. I too have grown in the past ten years or more and I love it. My kids and husband have helped me grow as well. I have learned alot and looking forward to learning and growing more. Sometimes those "freak-outs" come but I deal with it and move on. You must be thinking the same way as I am, your just better at expressing it in your blogs. Keep it up! Love ya! There is a reason for us to be here...family and all..there is a plan and there is only one who knows it...God..I'll find out soon enough! haha Have a great day!
uuummmm, hello? No true friends in Tennessee??
~Lisa
Hey Lisa-this AFTER you left!! Hello!!!! It got REALLY lonely'ya know!
Growth must happen. However, we can transcend time and space on a conscious level. The human spirit is ageless and if we learn to live from this, only then will we begin to understand the human existance here in the world of form. And, this understanding will allow us to truly know God which is knowing ourselves.
Man.... great post!
I agree with you...it was a scary thought thinking when did 30 creep up on me..but I am enjoying my life more then every now too. I am married to my soul mate which I fall in love with more and more each and every day and also as you know have 2 amazing boys..but this is the time were I believe you start to realize what life is really all about. I have realized that its not the quantity of friends that matter its the quality.
...Linda Madeira
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